NEW YORK - Former New Jersey Governor Jim McGreevey says he seduced the Israeli man who forced him out of the closet while his wife was in the hospital recovering from the birth of their daughter.

"I was totally in love with this man," McGreevey writes of Golan Cipel in "The Confession," the long-awaited memoir the New York Daily News bought at a bookstore Wednesday. "With Dina still in the hospital with our newborn, I'd been left to my own devices."

Many of the details of his relationship with Cipel were disclosed Wednesday as details of his interview with Oprah Winfrey, taped earlier this week, began to leak out.

McGreevey acknowledges there were pangs of guilt with the state troopers parked outside his home and his wife in the hospital recovering from a C-section.

But McGreevey says he couldn't help himself. And when his wife, Dina Matos, came home with their baby, he would sneak out at night and jog over to Cipel's apartment.

McGreevey's secret came out in 2004 when, under pressure from Cipel, who accused him of pressuring him for sex, he shocked the country by outing himself as "a gay American" and resigning. He and Matos are now divorcing.

Cipel, who was McGreevey's homeland security chief even though he wasn't a U.S. citizen, has denied ever being romantically involved with the ex-governor. His lawyer, Allen Lowy, did not return repeated calls for comment.

As for Matos, McGreevey says he regrets hurting her and recounts how, after he made his shocking announcement, she began carrying around a book - for all the staffers to see - titled "The Betrayal Bond: Breaking Free of Exploitative Relationships."

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